The bible says, seek and you will find.
But I cannot find Him, nor can I feel Him. Where is He?
Am I locked in an abyss, void of light and love, joy and laughter? Am I paying for sin committed in my past life, carrying generational burdens for which I did not own?
Am I yet evil? To want to question Him, to want a conversation with Him? To want to understand and therefore trust Him?
Are You there?